This poem was written back in September 2014 when I was still trying to process the loss of the man I loved.
"Where are You in the darkness?
Are You hearing me?
Can You see my falling tears
For all I've failed to be?
The mess ups of my present
And the failures of my past...
It constantly affects me
And the pain, it always lasts.
I beg of You to hear me
And this miracle to perform,
But my doubts are rising higher
About the stilling of this storm.
The hole is never ending,
The hurt will rise and fall,
And the one through whom I saw Your grace -
Tell me this is not Your soul.
For if the love I saw as Yours
That came from him to me
Is representative of Your grace -
Then it has failed me.
Lord, teach me how to see Your face,
Failed as his love has been.
And may I come to know this clear -
Lord Jesus, step between."
